I'm looking forward secretly.
I'm sick of exams seriously. It really made me go crazy, doing revision on my studies. Oh, I felt weird. Maybe I'm just used to my laziness, that's why asking me to do revision is like asking me face the death. I'm freaking stress and pressure for every single subject. What the hack! Is this me? Normally exams to me is like a normal thing, but how come I just can't overcome it this time? Probably its because of I'm gonna sit for SPM on the following year which also like a burden to me. It will either ruin my future or brings me a good future. Am I thinking too far? Well, I don't think I am. I start to concern about every single thing in my life recently. Even my relationship, studies, health, families and etc. Frankly speaking I'm more concern about studies now compare to last time. Last time I don't even care a shit of my results, but when I came up to Form 4 everything had changed. I noticed that I'm more mature in thinking, not that childish nor naive me anymore. I even learned to look forward to my future, I wish to achieve what I wanted all these while. Sometimes, I even imagine what will I be in future. Can I be a lawyer? I lose confidence in myself. I know I should think positively, but sometimes things just can't control by us. God bless!
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